[Jasmine at 3 months.]
So it is with life, I guess. Never say never.
Because guess what, God gave me a jumping bean for a daughter.
Before she turned 4, she started the developmental program in gymnastics. It started out easy, she was only going to a part time preschool. And although her little brother screamed "no!!!" every time we turned into the gymnastics parking lot, I had no other problems taking her.
Every year, however, the school hours and the gymnastics hours increased. When she was 6, I told myself: when she makes team, I will have to homeschool. First it was more like a joke, but as she acquired more and more loves (theater, piano, reading, story writing, just to name a few) and the time for "dinner-homework-bath-get ready for sleep" got shorter and shorter, the urge to homeschool became more serious.
[Jasmine, 7, demoing at the Olympic trials]
Fast forward to last May, she made team!
Truly, I didn't want to homeschool. I was dragging my feet. I love my girlie girl, but I need to be honest, she is active, curious, talk active, crazy - in every sense! Both in a good way and well, the not so good way. She can drive me crazy. Sometimes I ask her: do you ever stop? She always says: no.
Lucky that there was only a month of school left. Twice a week, she went to school and then to gymnastics straight after. It was 7:30pm when she was home to have dinner. Good thing she is academically strong and could finish all her homework on Monday. But just one week of that, and I felt that I was doing something wrong. How could I have an 8 year old and barely see her twice a week?
I was tempted to let her drop out from team. I often wonder if it is really worth taking her to a sport where she has little chance of doing anything with it. The chances for a college scholarship are slim to none. It has such a short life span; gymnasts are pretty much done by their early twenties. Also unlike skiing or hockey or tennis, it's not a social sport that you can enjoy with friends.
[My jumping bean.]
Then again, even if she only did it for 2 or 3 years, there must be benefits to it, right? She is extremely fit. It seems she learns a lot about commitment, persistence and team spirit. Most importantly, she loves going to her gymnastics classes.
So here I am.
My mind says: No, no, no, what am I doing to myself?
My heart says: Yes, yes, yes, this will be good for us.
Just last week I withdrew her from her school and told a few fellow parents.
It's funny how saying something out loud makes it the truth. It just hit me now.
Oh my goodness, we will be homeschooling!